my ' water and biscuit' analogy - Part 2

I have been so into theology nowadays, if my parents knew the amount of time I've spent on this area in comparison to the amount of time I should spend on studying my medical textbooks, they would probably have killed me long ago.

But studying theology did not help me in the correct way. The Lord spoke to me last week, 'Siew Wai, beware, you have made knowlegde your idol.'

True, knowledge does not help me to build intimate relationship with God. It's been sometime I was not able to truly communicate with God. I foundd myself straying in the wilderness, trying to battle my sinful nature with my own strength. The more I fought the more I realized I was helpless,powerless and weak. God, after watching my battle for so long, patiently waited for me to drag my own wounded body back to Him and say 'Father I can't do it by myself.'

I learned to give Him what I have but not trying to come out with what I do not have. I have a broken spirit and sins; I don't have perfection and strength.
There at the throne of Grace, I found myself bowing my head and kneeling; I also found God's acceptance.

This is grace. Everyone has to experience it personally to say that grace is sweet.I know what it means when John Piper says 'Stay close to the cross! Run to the altar of cross for the unlimited servings of grace!'

What is my greatest fear? My greatest fear is I know I am loved by God but my eyes, my ears and my heart fail to see,hear and feel it anymore. That is the greatest disaster of every believing Christian.

But GRACE overcomes this.

Apostle Paul was right when he wrote in Romans 5:20 (b) 'But where sin increased, grace increased all the more.'

So, again, the 'biscuit and water' analogy :) hehe