Gladiator -1

Quoted from my journal in the beginning of August 2010:


Just a few more weeks to my exams. I am a lil nervous but not too bad this time. It doesn't feel like the last exams in March. I know God will deliver the victory into my hands again. He did it last time, this time He will do the same.

But I am still a lil anxious...

My friend and I did a few rounds of revision together, and I have forgotten most things that I studied from the very beginning. Dear Lord, You are my only help....

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Quoted from my journal in early September:

1 more week to go and I will again face the giant of this season. The last 2 subjects are just a week away in Melbourne. But this time I am confident, very confident....not in myself, but in my Lord Jesus Christ.

6 months ago I was shivering and fearful, and God gave me a word about splitting the Red Sea and letting His people walk on dry ground to the promised land. He has miraculously let me pass the last exams, therefore I will continue to put my faith in Him. He is able, and if He was willing to do that for me in the past, I am confident that He will do it for me again this time.

Therefore I am very confident, not in myself but in my Lord God Almighty....


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Quoted from my journal on 14/9/10:

That's it. The exams will start tomorrow. After one whole year of intense preparation, lifestyle changes and sacrifice from Kevin and I, I just can't wait to get this exam over and done with.

Yesterday God gave me a vision. He seems to give me a lot of revelations through visions. This time the vision is about GLADIATOR.

I found myself playing the role of a Gladiator in my vision, and I was walking from the underground tunnel towards the arena. Ahead of me was a fierce battle awaiting me. I could hear the loud cry of the massive crowd who had filled up the whole Colosseum, they had come from near and far to be entertained by this battle that might put me to death.

I stood in front of the gate at the end of the tunnel and I could feel the heat of the battle.

But in my vision, I saw a gigantic figure behind me , He is my God and He cast His shadow over me. He said,' Don't be afraid of the battle ahead of you. I have already given the victory in your hands. You will not be harmed. '

Yeah! Gladiator I am.


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Quoted from my journal after I got the results....17/9/10.


I have locked myself in the hotel room for more than 36 hours. Sometimes I studied, sometimes I looked out of the window facing a beautiful lake, sometimes I lay in bed, sometimes I was on my knees praying. This room is like a beautiful prison cell. But I knew I was not alone, surely God was with me.

Psalm 23 was on my mind the whole time.

The night before the written exam, I went over to my friend's room for revision. He was very depressed and worried about the exams. I laid hand on him and prayed for him, I saw his eyes turned red after the prayer, I knew God must have done something in his heart.

The next day he thanked me and said the prayer worked in him :)

The written and oral exams both went very well for two consecutive days. For the oral exams, God gave me the same examiner who gave me the exam in March! How amazing! I don't think it was by chance. Some exam candidates had very harsh and difficult examiners who would not move on to the next questions unless they said all the right things. But this examiner that I had was fantastic. She was very gracious to me in my March exams that I thought I did not do very well.

The best thing after the oral exams was when the examiners of both subjects said 'well done' before I left. I walked out of the exam hall feeling very good, and I could not stop praising God because if without Him, it would not be possible for me to come to this stage.

The results came out on 17/9/10, Friday evening. I passed!!! (and later when I received the breakdowns of all the answers by post, I realized I did not just pass , I passed with flying colours!)

I knew it! I knew it because my Almighty God had promised deliverance of victory to me. I did my best and the rest I surrendered to Him. It's all Him and I do not dare to take any glory.I am so humbled by His grace and mercy. He has sustained me throughout the whole year of intense preparation, I must have spent more than 1000 hours in it. It was not easy to manage this esp with full time ICU employment and a new marriage. God has renewed me from strength to strength in every moment of my life. And He has also blessed my marriage in every way! Hallelujah!

He is a faithful God, rich in His love, grace and mercy. If we set our hearts to follow Him and trust in Him, He will straighten our paths.