yesterday, today and tomorrow

I have been asking God a lot of questions lately about my future. What is Your will God? In terms of relationship, career, ministry etc etc... I am very sure I have been called to be a full time missionary/church servant, but there are many important things in my life that are unsettled now and I can't see anything at all. In the past few months I have been using words like 'why, what, where, when, who and how' in my conversations with God.

I think finally God must have had enuf of me hehe (just joking, He is the perfect God, will not get impatient like men do) that He spoke to me about my attitude. It was like a bright light that shone in my heart, the energy in the beam was so high that it pierced my heart, it made loose all the entangled knots...Things that I thought mattered to me a lot didn't seem to be so big anymore.

He taught me something about 'yesterday', 'today' and 'tomorrow'.

He told me to trust in Him for my future. Don't ask why when who where when and how. The future is not for me to see, because what He wanna give me He has already done so. He has given me my 'yesterday' and my 'today'. My tomorrow is still in His hand and He will surely give it to me when 'today' has passed.

I have my 'yesterday' and that's been given to me so that I can learn, reflect, and ponder upon it. God has worked in all my 'yesterday'-s, He has revealed and done what He wanted to in my 'yesterday', and now that has become mine, it is for me to see, to believe and to remember (Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart- Luke 2).

And from what I have learned and seen and believed in my 'yesterday', I execute it on my 'today'. I live my 'today' based on the faith that I have built on from 'yesterday'. Therefore, 'today' is mine as well, it is a gift from God. Every 'today' is a gift, a new start, another opportunity. It is the place I practise what I have seen and learned yesterday.

In conclusion, God has already entrusted all the 'yesterday'-s and 'today' in my hands, and they are mine now, and that's enuf of work for me. Why shall I be greedy that I still want to hold my 'tomorrow' in my own hands? It is securely guarded by God, it is not mine yet. He will give it to me anyway whenever I've passed my 'today'.

Hahaha...it is like a parent handing a dollar cash note to his young school child every morning before school. The child cannot demand the next day's pocket money, but for the money that has been given in the past, she can keep it in her piggy bank. Her daddy has surely prepared the next day's money for her, only to be collected in the next morning.

Wow...I just feel it is so awesome to hear from God =)