happy Chinese New Year

This is my 4th year in Australia, out of this 4 years I have had 3 CNYs 'celebrated' here, including this one. Today is the CNY eve, and my celebration is very simple yet special. It is just like another day, I woke up in the summer heat in the afternoon, prepared myself to go to work. I actually wanted to just cook some instant noodle for dinner. And I talked to myself,' CNY without family is ok, it is just another day...'



Too bad CNY is not a pubilc holiday in Australia. I still have to work, still doing night shifts. I can't go home because I have to work, neither can I join any party/dinner with friends because of this night shift...As I woke up all my housemates were gone, just me alone...I began to imagine:



Far far away in Malaysia, my family is probably gathering around the dinner table now and having a big feast and good time together.


I m sure they miss me terribly and are talking about me.


I am certain that mom would say 'How good it is if B (my pet name hehe) is with us now.'
Then my brother would definitely laugh, 'Maybe she is having curry now.' ( Long time ago an Indian man wanted to court me and he often made me Indian curry, my siblings still joke about that until now...)
And Brownie (the dog) is probably occupying her seat under the dinner table (yes, my dog joins us for every dinner :) ) , wagging her tail , drooling crazily and staring at the food with excitement. Then she will most likely turn to my sister and look at her with innocence in her eyes, so that she will be offered some food.



Mom has probably made a 10-course dinner tonight. If I were home for CNY she would make sure 9 out of 10 courses to be my favourite dish...

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And here I am alone in Australia. Chris has gone back as well. Everyone is in some sort of party/dinner .



So I woke up, as I was going to prepare a simple dinner for myself before work, a friend called me up to join her family for dinner, a quick one just before I had to go. I couldnt believe that she called, because she is those kind of hi-bye friend whom I would hardly remember if I don't see her.



So I went to her house. All her siblings were there, plus their bfs. Her mom came all the way from Malaysia to visit the children. So that was a big dinner with a big family and I was the ONLY outsider.



That is such a beautiful family with beautiful hearts.They do not know me but accepted me like part of them. I did not feel left out at all throughout the whole dinner and that made me miss my family even more. I think if I had a chance I would rush to the toilet and weep.



While I was driving to work I just kept weeping and weeping with a mixed feeling of joy and homesickness...



God is good. He knew I was lonely so He blessed me with a wonderful dinner with a foreign family. Thank You Lord, You brought me into Your own family, and You continue to give me families that love me.



.......Happy Chinese New Year to all Chinese. And may God bless you all.