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My dog Brownie was standing on her hind legs by the dining table, drooling, eyeing my lunch , struggling to reach the food.

She was forced into a basket.....

My dearest sister and her daughter

Day 2 post arrival. I am missing home. Every single bit of me is missing home. It doesn't help that I have lived here for 4 years and 1 month.




I knew I had to sort out a lot of paper works as soon as I get back in Adelaide. Things like visa, rental lease, bills, work related admin crap etcetc...that made me reluctant to come back.





The great Adelaide aiport seemed so unreal to me. Didn't get much sleep at all on the plane, I was extrememly tired when I touched down in the morning.





As if it wasn't bad enuf, out of no reason I couldn't make any call with my mobile, my ATM card was not working, my credit card payment wasnt approved for one of the transactions...got home and quickly went online to check my bank account. Great, guess what, the internet was NOT working.





Worse still, there was a pile of letters and bills awaiting me on the table.One of them was from the Court. The Court fined me for not paying for a traffic offence earlier on, stated I was convicted of that traffic offence.





I had only half a day to sort out everything before I started on my job the next morning. I was dashing around like a mad woman, going from one place to another , making phone calls after phone calls.





In my exhaustion, I asked myself this question again. Why am I in Adelaide. If I were at home at least my family would back me up for everything. EVERYTHING. I am by myself here.





This was just a fleeting moment of weakness. And in my weakness I wept. I have not cried for a very long time for any circumstances, for God through trials has toughened me.





I talked myself through this, or , God talked me thru this. Don't look back. Don't pity yourself. Don't be too comfortable. Don't speculate about the thousands of 'what if's. Don't stop now. Don't reason. Don't live on feelings. Keep walking! Keep trusting in God!





God is good. Eventually I got everything fixed up. The Court's fine was withdrawn because I did actually clear the fine earlier on. Mobile and internet running fine again. Rental lease renewed. Bills paid for. Work admin stuff cleared.





I realise I did actually need to see miracles to be encouraged, nevertheless in my moments of weakness I know God has magnified Himself through lil things.